It was years ago, I was interviewed for a private academic centre. I was really need the job as i had been quit from my last job in one of a private University in Shah Alam. . I promised not to trouble mak n mil to take care of my doters as i have to go to work.
So after i gave birth of Ayra (my second baby), i promised to find a job (part time) expecially in tutoring as i noticed that my passion is towards teaching and learning environment. sounds skema isit? bahahaha .But its true. I never know that i love teaching, actually. So im not that idiot laa. heheh
Oh ya, just before it came to my decision to be a private tutor, I was started teaching at home. (home tutor) As i started, they were actually about twenty students whose came to my house in a particular days. It was disaster and out of control. seriously.
After that slowly i managed it and i was trying to work at home in peace. Guess what, i made it, and i knew i can do that. ngeheeh
People keep asking me, why i wanna do that? I have better qualifications, but i choose to be in this kind of environment. Can i manage? How would people trust that i can actually teach their kids?
oh well, I laugh if i remember that. I said, I am not a teacher, a school teacher, but the school teacher also not born as a teacher. They also didnt know that they ll become a teacher someday.
For me, is all about your passion, how much you clear with what are u doing. You just have to prove it. Letting them go? actually my heart so pain hearing that, but its okay. People will keep saying. Just let it be.
Oh yaa, about the interview, it was a bad day. Everything was good, but not for the mock teaching session. I forgot to prepare anything for the mock teaching. Have u heard people saying that, women who give birth will break thousands of nerves? yeah, its true.
I cant recall any topics to deliver that time. Ouch, such an embarrassing moment, i know. I kept apologize as i cant proceed with that session. means what, I knew that i will not get the job for sure.
Another worst day of my life. I was keep blaming myself for not preparing well for the job. I knew that i really really need that.
The centre is about 1km from home, so imagine what, it is very easy for me to make it happen, as it is only for part time so i can easily take care of my doters too.
Anyway, each time i have a very heavy heart of something, i will give a little speech that includes phrases like "its about your intention, if it is good, Allah will make it easy".
I had one recently and sigh lets not even talk about how i felt. It was very the pain. heeee
But know what, after weeks after that bad day, i was called by the boss from the centre. Puan Z. She offered me to teach UPSR subjects. Means i will have about 6 hours of classes in a week there. Ya Allah, i really cant describe my feeling. U see how Allah helps people whose let everything to be handled by Him.
So it was the started of my new life, as a cekgu. hehehe..Its stayed with me through happy times and bad times. Alhamdulillah.
For obvious reason, my love, my doters and mak the start of such great things in my life now. But the most important benda that u must know is, we decide, but Allah is the greaters. Just dont lose hope.
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Have u had a miracle experience like this? Appreciate your life. =)
Love,
IBoo
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